Well... I have!
And... I am SO GRATEFUL to feel FREEDOM... from THAT!
This week, I made a BIG decision that had been weighing on me for LONG time... and... actually, it all had been set in motion YEARS ago.
I had to choose, my path forward.
And I chose. Hope. I could *feel* with weightedness, how much there had been a "destiny" created for me... that I too was part of creating... for YEARS in the making. But when I reached THIS place... the ME of NOW... that "destiny" that was "arriving into my now" was no longer, MY choosing.
Strange, I know it may sound... but I chose my way FREE. I chose my way OUT of the plan that a younger, less evolved, more desperate ME, had created... That plan took FOREVER to finally come into place... and in the time it took to get here... I GREW. Yes. I grew. The WOMAN of me, was created... the WOMAN was grown into place... and from THIS place... that old dream... that old desire... that HUGE dream and desire... no longer held ground, no longer was the *dream* for ME, the ME of NOW.
It goes without saying that... we ALL are creating our future. Our choices, and our desires that DRIVE our choices, are creating our "next." We choose our way through life. That IS the truth... and... I had been choosing my way to a very specific outcome that I had LONGED for... FOREVER.
And that, involved a MAN... and a LOVE... that I thought would only be IN my life, in one certain way.
Well... this story... it’s actually part of a much bigger story... that needs to be written and shared... for I believe that MANY of us, in fact... create FROM our "undercurrents" of desire. We don't "know" we're doing that, but we ARE. Very much so!!
To NOT do that... to choose from our CONSCIOUS desires… is a MAJOR KEY... to FREEDOM!!! Real and true, freedom.
And how do we do that? We get CONSCIOUS about what's driving us, what IS under the surface? What IS really driving us, in our choices? Is it really ME, and what I actually want for me... OR, is it something deeply unrealized IN me that isn’t even relevant anymore… like an ancient OLD tie to something long gone and long ago that's no longer even desired by ME, the me of today?
Instead of choosing from our UNconscious desires, that may NOT be aligned with who we really are, or want to be now, what about choosing from CURRENT time, from our current “ME of NOW?” THAT could open a whole NEW world!!
So... long story short... I’ve been making headway in this story. I have been being CONSCIOUS of the "desires" and undercurrents driving me… and choosing for ME. The real true ME, of TODAY. Not the old me, of long long ago that I've grown out of... but the GROWN me... the ME that has evolved, and become THIS WOMAN that I am, today.
It's a very challenging walk, I'll tell you. Navigating the currents -- within! We all have them... I suppose it's only a matter of looking inside, taking the time and energy, to become SUPER conscious of what IS inside, driving our choices... and becoming SUPER conscious IN making choices that actually ALIGN WITH what is NOW. Not what aligns with a fairy tale of yesterday, or a long old forgotten idea of what you thought you might have wanted long long ago... But choosing based on the real NOW, what is NOW your heart's TRUE calling and desire, for the life you want NOW.
Choice creates our reality. And every single moment, we are choosing. All of THAT adds up to... creating the EXACT time and place you are in, at ANY given, time or place, NOW. Think about it... it's not rocket science. The possibilities are endless... AND, it’s SO simple: CHOICE makes the world go round!
SO... choose. And better yet… get conscious about what you ARE choosing... and realize... all of THAT... is creating your life, right now. Today.
I LOVE that we CAN choose. THANK GOD FOR THAT!!! And... I pray, that we ALL get more CONSCIOUS, awake, and aware OF our choices... each and every day!
Here's to... Our Freedom… real, true FREEDOM, on the inside... leading our way ~ forward!